Post by cutter on Sept 12, 2021 21:39:30 GMT -6
Friends, Cutter here. I'm sorry I've been away for so long. Some of you know that I've been caring for my ex-mother in law for a couple of years now, since her daughter's passing. Her health declined rapidly since April through the summer. She, and other things, have kept me busy over the summer. One of the side effects is that my characters haven't been speaking to me, or maybe I just couldn't hear them through the noise. Either way, I was not blessed with a single word to write. I like to think that Mark, Anastasia, Patrick, and the rest; respectfully gave me some time and space to do what I needed to do.
It's been a long, hard road for Delphine, but on August 27th, at 6:20 PM, she finished her earthly work. She passed at home. Her live in caregiver and I both had a hand on her in her final moments. We were the closest thing to family she had left, and we both truly loved her. She left this world in her own home, in her own bed, and on her terms, and she was not alone. She did not know me the day before; but she called me by name and told me she loved me, 20 minutes before she passed. I have no explanation, but that was a very personal gift from her that I will cherish until it is my time to go Home, perhaps for all eternity.
She is now forever beyond the reach of this world. She is reunited with loved ones and friends already gone on. The greatest blessing for her, Delphine can finally look into the eyes of the God who made her and the Son who gave all to save her soul. What those of us who believe, have in faith; she now has in fact.
It's strange; I have no sorrow for her passing. I'm overjoyed that after so long and so much, she is finally at peace in a place far better than any of us can imagine. I'm grateful that her passing was relatively quick, instead of her Alzheimer's and dementia taking her a piece at a time. I'm grateful beyond words that she left this world as Delphine, with a bit of dignity, instead of the empty shell those horrible diseases would have reduced her to, given more time.
My sorrow is not in her death, but in her life. When we meet again, I hope to discover that she found my devotion to her pleasing, my effort worthy. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of what I did for her, and always will be. I just hope it was enough.
Rest easy, Mama. God knows you earned it.
I don't know how long it will take, but I hope the Crew and Patrick will start talking to me again soon, and that I'll be able to hear them through the noise. I miss them.
It's been a long, hard road for Delphine, but on August 27th, at 6:20 PM, she finished her earthly work. She passed at home. Her live in caregiver and I both had a hand on her in her final moments. We were the closest thing to family she had left, and we both truly loved her. She left this world in her own home, in her own bed, and on her terms, and she was not alone. She did not know me the day before; but she called me by name and told me she loved me, 20 minutes before she passed. I have no explanation, but that was a very personal gift from her that I will cherish until it is my time to go Home, perhaps for all eternity.
She is now forever beyond the reach of this world. She is reunited with loved ones and friends already gone on. The greatest blessing for her, Delphine can finally look into the eyes of the God who made her and the Son who gave all to save her soul. What those of us who believe, have in faith; she now has in fact.
It's strange; I have no sorrow for her passing. I'm overjoyed that after so long and so much, she is finally at peace in a place far better than any of us can imagine. I'm grateful that her passing was relatively quick, instead of her Alzheimer's and dementia taking her a piece at a time. I'm grateful beyond words that she left this world as Delphine, with a bit of dignity, instead of the empty shell those horrible diseases would have reduced her to, given more time.
My sorrow is not in her death, but in her life. When we meet again, I hope to discover that she found my devotion to her pleasing, my effort worthy. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of what I did for her, and always will be. I just hope it was enough.
Rest easy, Mama. God knows you earned it.
I don't know how long it will take, but I hope the Crew and Patrick will start talking to me again soon, and that I'll be able to hear them through the noise. I miss them.
